Joy and Tulip @aSproutInSnow 2015
This site has been a long time coming. It's not buffed to it's shiniest yet. In fact, it's not even remotely close to being finished. But maybe that's the point. It's all a work in progress, that's just how it works. So, instead of feeling like I need to be perfect, I'm just going to start.
Starting. It's the thing that I find most challenging in almost every facet of my life. It's too cold, it's too dark, It's too wet, it's too hard, it's too much of the unknown, it's all already been done. These, and so many other excuses, cross my mind every. damn. day. Sometimes, its all I can do to push even one aside and just start. Go for a run, I tell myself. You'll feel better. You ALWAYS feel better.
And so I go. But then, occasionally, I don't.
When starting means exercise, I'm more likely to jump in. But, not always. This morning was one of those mornings. I was feeling very slightly under the weather when I checked the snow report at 6:15am. A few inches of new snow was not as motivating as it should have been. Back to sleep I went. When I finally got out of bed, I was still putting road blocks in my path, like the drive is going to be stressful and I may not want to risk it or I won't get a full day in. I literally had to yell, OUT LOUD, at myself to get out the door! Why? Seriously, why? If I have to yell at myself to get out the door for something that I LOVE, how am I ever going to get over it and get anything in my life going?
So, when starting means business ventures, a job, more education, and all of the other things people tend to refer to as "real life" I have a really hard time. But I'm not one to back down from a challenge. So, here I am. Starting.